Today we finally got a copy of ,Damian’s new psychological evaluation. We knew what it would say, we knew he had BiPolar, but seeing it written in clinical black and white was really devastating. It was 4 pages of words that meant that Damian will struggle for the rest of his life. 4 pages that induct him and us officially into a world of devastatingly depressing statistics. Our son has Pediatric Onset BiPolar Disorder II. We cannot medicate it away. We can not pray it away. We cannot therapy it away. We cannot ignore it away. We can not pretend anymore it is here to stay.
If only suffering can bring us happiness, then I better get to be freaking ecstatic soon.