Sunday Garrett and Emma went to visit Damian at Deveraux. He refused to speak with Garrett but went through pictures and memories with Emma and played a game on daddy’s phone. Damian ended the visit about 20 minutes after it began saying he wanted to go back to his “cabin”. He hugged Emma and walked away.
Emma has been having her own struggles lately with her ADHD and we haven’t found a medication that works for her yet. Today in the car she said, “sometimes I wish Damian wasn’t in our family cause then I wouldn’t be so sad about him.” Garrett opened his mouth to talk with her about how there are some things in life that we don’t choose but are ours to deal with none the less. But then Emma said, “But he is my brother so I am sad for him so bad and if he wasn’t my brother I guess I would be so sad anyway cause I would miss him. So I guess I am just going to have to keep being sad.”
All I could think about was that line from “The Dance” song. “I could have missed the pain but then I would have missed the dance.”